The Battle For My Higher Self

It becomes increasingly clear that I have become quite the resource.

My advanced spiritual being, my released advanced kundalini are quite the hot commodity.

I have a deep connection to the Godhead that I have been deprived of for the last number of years by parasitic scum that believes that they can cheat the universe and definitely cheat the Reptilians, Grays, and Satanic factions, although they may be using it too.

When my soul-mind-body matrix was invaded by the K.K.K., the mafia, and shadow factions in attempt to break me down and program me into an assassin they got more than they bargained for when they encountered a psychic, advanced spiritual soul.

When other beings found me and linked my mind universally, these crackers started to lay claim to my mind and declared that everyone had to go through them.

Through years of my own spiritual cultivation, yoga, and my past history with psylocibins I had developed a stronger connection to the Godhead, my Higher Self, Superconsciousness, and built strong kundalini.

This is why I am networked, or "with people."

Now these clowns and others like them are now are all fighting for the rights to everything that I am while segregating me from myself. I am being used in other places. I can't even use my intuition anymore. I am literally being hijacked.

I am beginning to understand this on deeper levels now.

It's me against them. I need my connection to my Higher Self to myself, plain and simple and this will be my focus from now on.

Spiritual Theft

I just realized while chanting Om today that there are entities stealing spiritual beings from me and ones that come to me, as well as my own spiritual energy and kundalini.

While chanting, the pressure and pulsing from thieving entities was wretched.

All of this is being transferred to garbage humans and other entities that cannot support spiritual energy or spiritual beings of their own. They are more on the Satanic side and belong in Satanic things, but they are "piggy-backing" on me to be a part of a collective that they weren't chosen for.

In turn this is draining me and depriving me of my connection to my Higher Self and the God-head.

Some immediate action must be taken to deal with these parasites.

Astral Attacks Getting Worse

Feeling very sick and shaky as I attempt to get ready for class. Whatever entity is pressuring the back of my skull is killing me.

Trying to fight back. I cant think. I cant move.

How Far We Have Come..

It's amazing what this has been reduced to.

Originally I was made to look like an idiot with adolescent pranks, threats upon my life and the life of family.

Then I generated so much federal attention upon myself. I still am.

From the original gangstalking, gaslighting, and other things, including a very poor attempt at mind control by someone who had no idea as to how to do anything, this is now nothing more than astral entities screaming into my auditory neuro-receptors, the wealthy draining me of my life force and libidinal energy, some group that wants to prove that they can destroy my life, and some other group making money off of people entering my body just like in the movie, "Being John Malkovich."

For my aggressors, there will be no hope of accomplishing anything now, except for devoting all of their time and energy into trying to make me jobless, homeless, and perhaps eventually dead. Even that is an uphill battle as I have too many friends and a big family, hundreds of friends and aquaintances, not to mention the L.D.S. church to support me.

They have succeeded in making me not able to hold a job this year, which is quite uncharacteristic of me. I'm just flat out not able to think straight. We shall see how far that goes.

More than anything else right now, someone is mainly using me to make a lot of money. I have heard it in my head. "This guy is a gold mine." they say.

They are charging money to go and play inside my body. They are charging money to "mine my soul and my energies" which I learned is not uncommon for the wealthy elite.

It has been hellish for my well being.

They are also using my mind to connect to others from their remote location.

I have yet to figure out how to disconnect these human parasites from me. It is really taking a toll on my mind, my conscious awareness, my mental sharpness, my psychic abilities and my drive in general.

They have stolen my dreams as well. I have even heard accounts of astral rape taking place within my body.

I have learned that people pay really big money to "mine" unsuspecting humans and I unfortately am one of these victims. This must stop.

Attention

I have grown to realize that attention is a precious commodity.

It is like gold.

These E.T., Reptilian, and human clowns thrive on attention.

I must thrive upon distraction.

Verification That The Planet Needs About 10% Of The Population To Shift In Consciousness For A Dimensional Shift

The following link would verify extraterrestrial and metaphysical literature on what it would take to change global consciousness and assist in a positive dimensional shift. 

http://news.rpi.edu/update.do?artcenterkey=2902

Blessing And Curse, Part 1

I've made so much progress in recovering from this and at the same time it has gotten so much worse. For those reading, as much as I feel confident about my position, the last three years have been absolute hell. I can't think straight. I can't breathe sometimes. My head feels like there is a clamp on it.

I fought hard today to add two new links to emhdf.com. There are many typos and grammatical errors because the whole time that I was doing this my body and mind were under heavy negative astral entity attacks. It has been a horrible day.

It all started when I received a shipment of bulk 5HTP this morning. 5HTP is a "mood enhancer" that helps your brain's seratonin flow. I bought this to confront the negative astral entities that are trying everything to make me feel bad in hope of breaking down my soul-mind-body complex in order to someone or something inside of me.

I have been fighting back. But it got ugly today.

I took a heavy dose of 5HTP. Things started somewhat well. Then my head became crowded with entities. These entities have ways of making me extremely ill. I started uncontrollably projectile vomiting. It is the worse induced feeling ever. You just want to die. They wanted to make sure that I didn't digest the 5HTP. They kept it going until I had nothing left in me. After the last extremely, gut-wrenchingly painful dry heave I heard a voice saying, "There's nothing else in him. I think we got it all out."

This has happened to me before. This year, after being extremely dependable for whatever company I have worked for, have lost two jobs. The last one I lost after being made to feel so sick that I wanted to die. I would run to the employee bathroom violently heaving every possible thing inside of me. It got so bad that I didn't want to return to that job. Once the job was gone the sickness stopped.

I don't know how to disconnect from these entities and weapons, but I must persist. This literally is the worst feeling ever.

Sorry to start this blog on a downer. There's still light at the end of the tunnel.

In Love and in Light.

-S.B.

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